my so called life

a_voice_unheard @ 2005-08-14T20:53:00

2005-08-15T02:00:46Z

Think about them one at a time BEFORE going on to the next one...
IT DOES MAKE YOU FEEL GOOD.

1. Falling in love.

2. Laughing so hard your face hurts.

3. A hot shower.

4. No lines at the store.

5. A special glance.

6. Getting mail

7. Taking a drive on a pretty road.

8. Hearing your favorite song on the radio.

9. Lying in bed listening to the rain outside.

10. Hot towels fresh out of the dryer.

11. Chocolate milkshakes. (or vanilla or strawberry!)

12. A bubble bath.

13. Giggling.

14. A good conversation.

15. The beach

16. Finding a 20 dollar bill in your jacket from last winter.

17. Laughing at yourself.

19. Midnight phone calls that last for hours.

20. Running through sprinklers.

21. Laughing for absolutely no reason at all.

22. Having someone tell you that you're beautiful.

23. Laughing at an inside joke.

24. Friends.

25. Accidentally overhearing someone say something nice about you.

26. Waking up and realizing you still have a few hours left to sleep.

27. Your first kiss (either the very first or with a new partner).

28. Making new friends or spending time with old ones.

29. Playing with a new puppy.

30. Having someone play with your hair.

31. Sweet dreams.

32. Hot chocolate.

33. Road trips with friends.

34. Swinging on swings.

35. Making eye contact with a cute stranger.

36. Making chocolate chip cookies.

37. Having your friends send you homemade cookies.

38. Holding hands with someone you care about.

39. Running into an old friend and realizing
that some things (good or bad) never change.

40. Watching the expression on someone's face
as they open a much desired present from you.

41. Watching the sunrise.

42. Getting out of bed every morning and
being grateful for another beautiful day.

43. Knowing that somebody misses you.

44. Getting a hug from someone you care about deeply.

45. Knowing you've done the right thing,
no matter what other people think.

a_voice_unheard @ 2005-08-10T20:46:00

2005-08-11T01:54:59Z

so im soo bored so ill name the people i love...

lauren
chelsea
becca
mercy
kramer
bob
john
kayleigh
veronique
katie
SARAH
paige
camille
cameron
trey
sean duh i have to
frankie
nicole
danille
michelle
sweetie kitty (my cat)
keegan
ashley
steven e
cecilia
levi
juan
stephanie
andrew
jorge
amber
julian
theron
bryan

sorry if i forgot you im tired. but all the love in my heart is seperated between yall.

a_voice_unheard @ 2005-08-09T20:41:00

2005-08-10T01:42:09Z

MommyIMissDaddy: hurray
Moderrn Romance: what
MommyIMissDaddy: its muuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuurcy
Moderrn Romance: :-)
MommyIMissDaddy: let me buss one out fo ya
MommyIMissDaddy: yo dawg its mizzercy, eating tizzerkey, down by the park, after dark, smokin weed, INDEED! shes the coolest person i ever knew, so fuck everyone else, and lets eat SHROOMS!
Moderrn Romance: hahaa
MommyIMissDaddy: :-)
Moderrn Romance: 8-)
MommyIMissDaddy: i got flow yo
MommyIMissDaddy: haha
MommyIMissDaddy: j0hnny8875: i fucking love good charlotte <--like oh em gee me too!!
Moderrn Romance: hahaa
Moderrn Romance: he was kidding lolll
MommyIMissDaddy: i know so was i
MommyIMissDaddy: lol
Moderrn Romance: hahaaa
MommyIMissDaddy: i lied im gunna buss two out fo ya
MommyIMissDaddy: this one is frum da hearrrrt
MommyIMissDaddy: good charlotte, my favorite color is scarlet, they are the best i ever heard, to like them you gotta be a nerd, like me, G, im free, like merceeeee, shes free, to be, anyone she wants to be, thats why she smokes weeeeee-d, and shrooms you ask? theyre cool too, just not at schoo cuz those gay ass pigs aint got no dicks
Moderrn Romance: hahaa
Moderrn Romance: 8-)go shea
MommyIMissDaddy: they will aaresst you and lock you up, then youll be like FUCK,
MommyIMissDaddy: and what about mercy? shell bail you out, no doubt
MommyIMissDaddy: cuz shes sweet, to the beat no yall
MommyIMissDaddy: pppuuhh pooohhh puuuhh chuuuh
MommyIMissDaddy: hahah
MommyIMissDaddy: paaa taaa paaa taaa puuhhh pooohh puuuhhh chuuuhhh buh nun bow bow
MommyIMissDaddy: okay thats all
Moderrn Romance: niiiice

im such a dork :)

a_voice_unheard @ 2005-08-08T13:26:00

2005-08-08T18:28:43Z

1. dance-hec
2...spanish-marquez
3...wd goegraphy-yates
4...algebra-nasr
5...english-bains
6...ipc-kroger

if you have had any of these teachers tell me if they are mean

a_voice_unheard @ 2005-07-21T13:25:00

2005-07-21T18:23:24Z

hey im at work right now. all this week im at my aunt page's house.

how is everyone?

a_voice_unheard @ 2005-07-02T21:21:00

2005-07-03T02:21:52Z

my ear hurts like a bitch because i have swimmers' ear in both ears and i have an ear infection on top of that in my left

p.s. ashley pena is the sweest person EVER

a_voice_unheard @ 2005-05-25T14:37:00

2005-05-25T19:37:36Z

im going to austin from thursday to wednesday. whoo hoo!!

a_voice_unheard @ 2005-05-23T14:59:00

2005-05-23T20:21:17Z

hey im at my stepdad's work,
i went to lauren palooza on friday and it was fun to get to see everybody.
the band there was HILARIOUS.
when becca walked in she screamed as loud as she can SSHHHEEEAAA!!!
and then i was like BBBEEECCCCCCAAA!!!
and then she ran up to me and gave me the biggest hug ever
and people were looking at us wierd.
then chels ran up to me and gave me a big hug
and she was like "sissy i have missed you soooooooooooooo much" and we hugged for 45651354534 minutes.
and i hung out with bob and julian alot before becca and chels came and bob gave me like 25444687 hugs cuz he said he missed me and julian was sweet

it was all nice.

except i wasnt aloud to go to aragon for the dance to see mercy and ver so that kind of sucked but everything else was nice.

p.s. im drinking a caramel frappaccino. mm-mm goood

a_voice_unheard @ 2005-05-06T15:37:00

2005-05-06T20:38:59Z

i brought adderall to school to give to my boyfriend and the stupid mother fucker told on me.
then they searched my locker and they found a bunch of pills.
i got expelled from school.
the deputy arrested me and took me to clay road police department.
then me and dustin (my EX boyfriend) got put in a cell for like 3 hours.
then i went to jail.
my mom picked me up.
i got a level 3 felony and a level 5 minstamener.
i had to hire a lawyer that was 5000 dollars.
i have to go to court to see if i am going to jail.
the minimum sentance is 2 years in jail and the maximum is 10 years.

holy shit.

a_voice_unheard @ 2005-04-05T17:16:00

2005-04-05T22:22:45Z

im grounded for a long time again because
i skipped school and the dumb cop caught me and liz.
so i am on total grounding again which totally sucks.
i got my hair cut and i am gunna redye it tonight i think.
im not sure who i like anymore..
i mean whats the point really?
its not like he is ever gunna like you back.
but oh my gosh this guy named dustin
was hitting on me in DMC (i had 3 days)
and he would like whisper shea
and i would like look at him and he would be like
raising his eyebrows or kissing at me or whatever
and he was like "hey baby come on dont you like me?"
i was like dude, first of all what grade are you in
cuz i know you arent in mine.
and second of all i dont even know you.
then today we were being all nice and lovey dovey in d-hall.
hmph.

a_voice_unheard @ 2005-03-28T19:44:00

2005-03-29T02:18:16Z

Survey

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE ME

1.) dying

2.) farris wheels

3.) roller costers that have loops

THREE PEOPLE WHO MAKE ME LAUGH:

1.) mercy

2.) lee bates

3.) sarah

THREE THINGS I LOVE:

1.) music duh

2.) my friends

3.) helping people and making people happy

THREE THINGS I HATE

1.) people being sad

2.) assholes.

3.) people bringing up things when they know it will hurt your feelings.

THREE THINGS I DON'T UNDERSTAND:

1.) why no guy likes me. im nice right?

2.) why the sky is blue instead of pink. pink is good. come on god work with me here.

3.) why guys are obsessed with their dicks. but hey it happens

THREE THINGS ON MY DESK:

1.) my cell phone

2.) a can of dr pepper

3.) product for my hair (dont ask)

THREE THINGS I'M DOING RIGHT NOW:

1.) this survey

2.) thinkg about some stuff

3.) and im about to be putting together a present

THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE:

1.) go skydiving

2.) get married and have kids

3.) be happy

THREE THINGS I CAN DO

1.) flip my eyelids inside out

2.) do peoples make up

3.) swim?

THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY:

1.) nice

2.) generous

3.) caring

THREE WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY LOOKS:

1.) redish hair

2.) blue eyes

3.) medium height i guess

THREE THINGS YOU SAY THE MOST:

1.) totally

2.) awww

3.) like, hey guys!

THREE OF YOUR ABSOLUTE FAVORITE FOODS:

1.) umm.. jamba juice

2.) captain crunch

3.) Subway subs

THREE BEVERAGES YOU DRINK REGULARLY:

1.) sprite

2.) tea

3.) water

THREE SHOWS YOU WATCHED WHEN YOU WERE A KID:

1.) anamaniacs

2.) rocko's modern life

3.) pinky and the brain

THREE PLACES YOU LIKE TO BE:

1.) my house

2.) the mall

3.) wherever with friends

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO:

1.) to bed with you. jk.

2.) australia

3.) figi

THREE NAMES THAT YOU GO BY:

1.) shea

2.) shea shea

3.) sheanathen

THREE THINGS YOU DID TODAY:

1.) went to work

2.) went to five different stores to find lee a tie

3.) walgreens

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE OR HAD:

1.) sidewayscribbler (very very old)

2.) sh344d4m5

3.) wastedyouth64 (i think those are the numbers)

THREE SCHOOL SUBJECTS YOU LIKE :

1.) teen leadership

2.) lunch

3.) lunch again

THREE SCHOOL SUBJECTS YOU HATE:

1.) math

2.) science

3.) history

THREE SONGS YOU LOVE:

1.) another perfect day - american hi fi

2.) cut up angels - the used

3.) breakfast at tiffany's - the ramones

THREE THINGS YOUR FRIENDS MIGHT NOT KNOW ABOUT YOU (BUT THEY WILL NOW!):

1.) when there is one around i eat reeces cups with a spoon

2.) im not big on chocolate

3.) i take alot of medicine

THREE THINGS YOU SHOULD BE DOING:

1.) washing my clothes, ill do them later

2.) cleaning my room

3.) nothing

THREE PEOPLE YOU MISS:

1.) my grandma she died when i was little

2.) my brother sean when i dont see him for a long time

3.) same with my little sister

THREE THINGS YOU HATE ABOUT YOURSELF:

1.) i need to think more positively

2.) sometimes im too nice and people take advantage of me

3.) my hair im gunna make it COOL next time i color it

THREE THINGS YOU LOVE ABOUT YOUR FRIENDS:

1.) they're always there for me

2.) if im sad they make me happy

3.) they are all soooo nicee

THREE THINGS YOU WISH YOU WOULD'VE DONE DIFFERENTLY:

1.) not done so many drugs to go to rehab

2.) not ran away

3.) not get so distant from mercy. shes one hell of a girl

THREE QUALITIES YOU WISH YOU HAD:

1.) funny?

2.) faith in people

3.) optimism only i do alot of the time

a_voice_unheard @ 2005-03-26T08:26:00

2005-03-26T16:27:35Z

i want to find me a boy to love
a boy with wealth and class
but most off all i want me a boy
with a bootylicious ass

a_voice_unheard @ 2005-03-25T20:52:00

2005-03-26T04:56:52Z

today i went to galveston with sarah grant and sean and michael faria came too and we had so much fun.

she got a skirt and we got some necklaces cuz we went shopping on the seawall.

then we came home and me and sarah grant and melissa elleridge went to wired to see lee bates play and it was alot of fun we saw mercy and veronique and mitchell and steph and becca came later and i got to hang out with my good friend lee bates alot so that was fun.

there were these bottles there that were drinks and they had a marble in it they were awesome i saved mine.

my day was funn but i got sunburned on the face.

a_voice_unheard @ 2005-03-20T18:58:00

2005-03-21T01:00:28Z

my stepdad randomly handed me $100 friday so that was cool.

i got fast times at ridgemont high and dazed and confused. two classic fucking awesome movies.

a_voice_unheard @ 2005-03-19T12:39:00

2005-03-19T18:39:49Z

do you ever wish you can just step back from your life.

a_voice_unheard @ 2005-03-18T16:38:00

2005-03-18T22:43:39Z

for some reason i dont know why, everyone lately has been asking me about when i ran away and got put into the hospital for rehab.

they have had ALOT of questions so im going to tell you the WWHHOOLLEE story to clear things up.

it was thanksgiving break and me and my mom and dad had been fighting alot. now since i was fighting with both of them it wasnt like i could just go to the other one's house or anything like that. and at this time i had been sneaking out every weekend and doing drugs all the time and i was just in a really bad place. so one night my family (my step sister was in town i remember) went to red lobster for dinner and my mom and me got in a big fight and thats when i decided that i was gunna run away. so when my mom droped me off back at my dads house (i already had a suitcase with clothes and stuff) i called my friend at the time brittney because she was the one who always knew how to sneak her moms car out. so i called her and the conversation went a little something like this..

me: "do you remember when you told me that you wish you could just go away and never come back?"
brit: "yeah why?"
me: "im ready to go with you"
brit: "whats wrong babe what happened?"

then i told her and she said she would talk to her mom about picking me up so i wouldnt be left alone when i ran away because i told her that whether she came with me or not i was running away. then i went upstairs and got a shirt and some sleeping pants and went downstairs and ran out the back door. then i ran to truitt (my dad lives close to truitt) and brittney's mom picked me up from truitt and we went back to brittney's house. then while my parents were trying to find me (they even called brittney but brittney's mom lied and said i wasnt there) i hung out at brittney's house. then later that night after her mom had gone to sleep we stole her moms car and drove to galveston. but before that at like four in the morning we went to our friend aaron's house (we was 19) and he bought us cigarettes. then the next day we were driving and the sun was in our faces and we didnt see the red light and we ran it and it turned out that there was a cop right there so we got pulled over. i got minor in possession of tabacco, running away, and there was something else i cant remember at the moment and brittney got driving without a licsense becase she was only 15. then our parents picked us up and i went home and later that day my mom took me home because she thought i was on drugs when she picked me up (which i think i was but i cant remember) and they said that i needed to stay there for a while in the hospital. and i started crying because my daddy promised that he wouldnt let my mom send me away to a place like that but she thought it was best.

so i got checked in and it was just normal rehab i got put on a bunch of medication and they gave me a nicatine patch and there were alot of cool people there. its just really different. the only person i called while i was in there was mercy. i called her because i knew that she wouldnt tell anybody that i ranaway (which i told her about) or that i was in rehab or anything unless i wanted her to. so she was the first to know all of that but anyways so yeah.

i got put in the hospital on november 27 and i havnt done drugs, not even smoked a cigarette since then. compared to when i used to do so many drugs its not even funny.

a_voice_unheard @ 2005-03-16T16:16:00

2005-03-16T22:16:18Z

i didnt go to school today.

THIS IS MERCYYY BITCHES

2005-03-15T01:14:25Z

hey shea this is mercy & i totally love you alot.
aaand i think we should hangout soon because we haven't in liiiike a long time

a_voice_unheard @ 2005-03-13T16:55:00

2005-03-13T22:57:37Z

for dinner my mom is making
chicken fried steak and
mashed potatoes and
corn on the cob and
other stuff

gross.

when all i want to do was go out somewhere
where i could get a ceaser salad.

a_voice_unheard @ 2005-03-12T13:31:00

2005-03-12T19:36:38Z

amber wilkerson spent the night last night
and we had fun and
then we went to her little cousin's soccer game early this morning
and then we spent mostly all of the day outside in the
hot hot heat
with julian abarca because i love
him hes like my brother
and me and julian wanted to see who could keep our hands on a burning hot grill
(it was hot because of the sun because it was black)
the longest and i won and now i have a burn on my hand
ouch

a_voice_unheard @ 2005-03-11T18:40:00

2005-03-12T00:40:45Z

I wish it was back to me and you

I wish that we didnt part
I wish you didnt break my heart
I wish i could go back to the past
I wish that me and you could have last
I wish that you would want me like i want you
I wish you would understand my feelings for you
I wish that you would take me back
I wish i could see that crying wont bring you back
I wish you wouldnt be with her
I wish that you would love me even more
I wish i didnt fall for you as hard as i did
I wish everyone would see you like i did
I wish that you would remember those times that we had
I wish that youd see our good times from the bad

but most of all... I wish It was Back to Me and You

a_voice_unheard @ 2005-03-07T14:31:00

2005-03-07T20:44:00Z

so far my spring break hasbeen most excellent.

friday.

i went to the skatepark
and hung out with sean and chris and jj and tim and john
and tim told sean i was pretty :)
and john and sean were talking about what classes they get boners in it was soooo funny.

saturday.

cousins spent the night at my house
we went to get our nails done
then we went to jamba juice
and it was really good
and then we went to the movies
and i saw because of winn dixie and it was really good
and then we went to fuddruckers. yummy.

sunday.

i went to hot topic
and got a "the used" shirt
it is soo cool
and i got a the used poster
it wasnt the one i wanted but it still turned out being really cool.
then i saw boogeyman it was scary.
went to youth with lauren
and met this really hot guy named trenton.
grr.
then lauren spent the night.

today.

me and lauren woke up
and went to ihop
and then we went with sean to get his drivers liscense.
i am going to the rodeo later.

thats my sprin break so far.

a_voice_unheard @ 2005-03-03T19:05:00

2005-03-04T01:09:28Z

today was pretty much the best day ever.

i made lasagne. its still cooking.

a_voice_unheard @ 2005-02-27T17:38:00

2005-02-27T23:47:09Z

bold the ones that apply to you!

01. I've been with my boyfriend for almost a year.
02. I still watch cartoons.
03. I've never seen The O.C.
04. I love almost all music.
06. I want a tattoo.
07. I wear glasses.

08. But mostly to read the blackboard and drive.
09. I want more piercings.
10. But I can't ever get any more.
11. I love to watch the rain.
12. I like to walk in the dark at night with someone special and talk.
13. I didnt believe in true love when i was younger.
14. I am a pretty cynical person sometimes.
15. Sometimes I cry for no damn reason.
16. I cry about stupid things.
17. I hate being walked all over and treated like crap.
18. It annoys me when people try to tell me how I am, and what I like.
19. I love music.
20. I am not sure if I believe in God. But i think i believe in a higher power.
21. I often feel alone.
22. I'm sometimes a loud person.
23. A boy shattered my heart into a million pieces.
24. I get depressed sometimes.
25. I hate it when people criticize me for what I like.
26. I crack my knuckles, wrists, ankles, back, etc.
27. I fidgit with anything when I'm nervous.
28. I'm a weird person.
29. I consider myself pretty unique.
30. My eyes are brown.
31. Listening to music usually helps my mood.
32. I am a disappointment to myself.
33. I love sleeping.
34. I'm obsessed with Vanilla.
35. I have a few close friends.
36. Okay, i have like 2 friends.
37. I need to lose weight.
38. I like popcorn.
39. I love watching tv.
40. I like malls.
41. I like cold weather better than hot.
42. I really dig Depeche Mode.
43. I love Winter. (its alright)
44. I'm addicted to AIM.
45. I have trouble trusting people.
46. I do not label myself anything besides "me."
47. I love my family...
48. I loathe hot weather.
50. I hate shaving my legs.
51. Sleeping is a hobby of mine.
52. I like to listen to music everyday.
53. I love white tigers.
54. I love dancing.
55. I don't always like .the way I look.

56. I used to cut myself
57. I'm a daydreamer.
58. I like when my friends write me letters, it makes me feel special.
59. I like to be with my boyfriend/girlfriend. (if i had one)
60. I randomly doodle on pieces of paper or myself when boredom strikes.
61. I love all my friends.
62. I'm allergic to milk.
63. I wish people would stop making me cry.
64. I hate people who try to be what they're not.
65. I went to boarding school for the last 2 years of high school.
66. I love all candy, well, most.
67. I get my feelings hurt really easy.
68. I believe inner beauty is more important than outer beauty.
69. I wear pants a lot.
70. I am often bored.
71. I like to say what's on my mind.
72. I hate blue jeans.
73. I'm online a lot.

74. I have 2 goldfish.
75. I am for the most part happy with myself.
76. I need to work out more.
77. I like being alone at certain times.
78. When I get angry, I curse to myself sometimes.
79. I wish I could spend more time with the ones I love.
80. I hate shallow people.
81. I'm a type 1 (insulin dependent) diabetic.
82. I ponder life way too much.
83. Sometimes I think everyone hates me.
84. I wish my brother didn't die.
85. I hate it when girls have their thongs sticking really far out of the back of their pants.
86. I need to be showed I'm loved.
87. I wish I was better.
88. I hate discrimination.
89. I hate guys who are only out for one thing... ( psh))))
90. I have a cute car.
91. I love glitter.
92. I sometimes wish I was more social.
93. I love my close friends.
94. I love to have fun.
95. I get amused easily.
96. I'm a lazy ass. I really am.
97. I'm usually more outgoing when I'm around friends.
98. I love to be me.
99. I like wearing hoodies.

fortune cookie i got today : you will discover the truth in time. scary.

a_voice_unheard @ 2005-02-27T16:19:00

2005-02-27T22:19:18Z

i saw winnie the pooh's huffelump movie today.

its beautiful outside.

my mom wont take me to jamba juice..

i had chineese food for lunch.